I sit here watching my new love, aka “How I Met Your Mother”, and I find myself contemplating the New Year and what I am going to change. To start this adventurous post I will tell you about my own self-evaluation. To begin, I tell you that I’ve always asked my girlfriend if she still liked me just to make sure that our love was built on a quality and sturdy foundation, yet I realized that I had never asked myself that question. After doing so I was thoroughly surprised by my answer. I found that if I could break up with me I would. I realized that I have actually been a terrible person; I know this because in recent events I have had all my sins thrust into the light. This made me question even more such as, “Why am I living? Why do I exist on this Earth? What purpose does my low-life, miserable, insignificant existence serve on this Earth?” Two years ago I would have said that my life doesn’t mean anything and that I should end it. However, here I sit on December 31, 2014, preparing to ring in the New Year, and I tell you that my low-life, miserable, and seemingly insignificant existence is here to serve a purpose. A great purpose; a purpose above all other purposes.
I happened to find my purpose in a growl. The growl story is for another day, but for now I have found my purpose to be what I have always felt it to be, to help people. However this just brought more questions as my heart ached for understanding of one fact, how can I help people when I myself need help? I don’t need a doctor or a therapist, I need a relationship with God, I need His help and guidance, but I’ve never been a “churchy” person until recently; in fact I used to laugh at people who prayed in public at restaurants and I used to call them “nuts of the spirit”. Terrible, I know, but here I sit and I tell you that I am now one of those “nuts”. I have come to understand that they aren’t “nuts” at all, they are faithful, and most importantly they are loved by Him and they aren’t afraid to show it.
How many of us hold hands with our significant other in public? Or kiss in public? Or hug and/or show any kind of affection in public? Why does our spouse mean more to us than the One who gave us life? Why do our girlfriends mean more to us than the One who gave His Son to die for us so that we can have everlasting life? He loves us, the least we can do is show it back. He says in John 3:16,
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)
I’m sorry if I offend you in public with my prayer, but as it reads in Joshua,
…As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
(Joshua 24:15)
That is what I will do. To improve a low-life, miserable, insignificant life and turn it into a prosperous, loving, kind, and successful life I need to return to my roots and reevaluate why I am living. I am not living for money, friends, or a job, I am living so that one day I can return to Heaven and live amongst the One who made me. Who better to have as a roommate than the Great I Am? I’ll tell you who, no one. What are your New Year Resolutions? Get that promotion? Go to the gym? Those are nice, but you cant take that stuff to Heaven, and if you waste your life chasing those things without a relationship with God, none of that will matter in the end. Lets take a vow together to start living for the right purpose. Take the “leap of faith”, believe in the unseen, and live to please God, you’ll be surprised how much happier you will be, plus you never know what bounty he will bestow upon you to show his affection back!
…God is able to make all grace abound to you,
so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times,
you may abound in every good work.
(2 Corinthians 9:8)
Happy New Year!
-A
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-A
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